we just might move back to arkansas if dons daughter takes back her kids (saria and adah)....because if she takes them back then it would be cheaper to live in arkansas instead of california....well...we will have more money because don has disability checks and some other check and moms gonna get disability checks along with mine, rynes, and shawns income checks and mom might get a job...so we might be back in time for school to start if not alittle later ....and take a wild guess on who brought up the subject?...it was DON of all people....im actually kinda glad to hear it from him....it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside for some odd reason..oh well

change in plans ...we are comeing back in july reason being is because ryne kept on bugging my mom saying stuff like "im scared im gonna fail if i take summer school there" and some other stuff i cant remember ...so we ARE coming next month ....its only gonna be mom, don, me, and melissa OH! we got a new van that can seat 8 people...the only reason were not taking the kids is cause we need the cargo space...dont worry were leaving them with a friend down the street

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just a couple of days after the seinors graduation mom and don had their biggest argument since weve been here...theres a 3 year old girl that lives with us (shes dons grandchild) and her name is adah and she did something bad...i cant remember what right now but mom slapped her and made a tiny red mark on her shoulder and don said that he heard the slap in the livingroom and the kitchen is right by the livingroom and a few minutes later don jumped moms ass...they were standing in the kitchen yelling at eachother(i was in my room when all this started) and i hear the yelling and went in there to see what was going on (i hate it when curiosity gets the best of me >.< )then i figured out what happened by what they were yelling about...then later on in the arguement don is acussing my mom of being abusive...(this is where i was brought into the argument *sighs*) then don has the nerv to acusse me of being abusive to adah as well...then he says that everytime he comes into the livingroom i have the paddle in my hand spanking adah...now at this point i was so pissed off that even i never thought that i could get this mad i yelled at don saying thats not true...and i also told him that i only spank her when she really needs it...he just dont know what hes talking about cause he smokes some kind of drug besides cigs and hes a fu*king drunkard ....damn druggie...after the arguement my mom slept in the livingroom for a few nights

a couple of days later when shawn, tyler, and saria were gone outside playing mom and don started argueing about the same subject a few days before...and this time don called us all pigs and told us that his house was always clean before we moved in and told mom that she dont pay as much attention to saria and adha as she does with me and my brothers and sister...then mom came out and said that we are moving back to arkansas the beginning of july...this night mom slept in my room...a couple of days later don came forth and said sorry to mom and told her that he dont want to lose her... everythings back to "normal"

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yea alot of stuffs been going on...but oh my god! i am so excited about comeing back to arkansas ...i'll come see all of my dear ark friends i cant wait to see you guys u have no idea how much i've missed u...nobody here is anything like u guys... i've been thinking if i really really really talk to my mom and don i might be able to stay for the rest of the summer with one of my friends...but i dont know i'll have to talk to them soon...ok im getting tired of typing ...so any questions comment this...if they are questions that people cant see just send me a note

yea...i told some people that im not coming back in june but instead july...well my parents kinda changed plans...were coming back in june...god they need to make up their minds or something...lol...its like one plan to another...i hope they stick with this one because we are staying in ark for a while...were gonna go back, pack up some stuff we want to take back to cali and the rest of the stuff that we dont have enough room for is gonna go in storage in town...but yea....im still gonna come visit u guys! i just cant wait...this week is the last week of school for me...cause we need to leave on either the 2nd or 3rd so we'll be there around either the 4th or 5th possibly the 6th...but yea...we;ll be there at the beginning of the month so dont worry...im so excited!

well first things first school ends here on june 5th cant wait til summer time! XD

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well the reason i havnt been able to update my journal in awhile is cause the only time i have to get on the computer is in computer class and i sneak to get on here hehehe i havnt gotten in troble yet HA!! and i got four F's on my report card so don grounded me from the computer until my grades are up...yea...im sneaking to get on the computer at home to! but my mom let me on so thats not really sneaking HA! the other reason i havnt been on in a while is that i just now got over a very bad case of the cold...it lasted ever since last monday til today...im still kinda sick...just got a stopped up nose...but im going back to school now even though i dont want to...god i hate these schools...they suck...i would prefer SFA better than these schools!!

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this little part of the journal is dedicated to one of my best friends wolfdemon.

oh my god...demon that message on the back of the drawing made me cry...did u really mean all of that?

thank u so much for the book and drawing...the day we picked it up i didnt put it down...i just kept on reading until i was done...i never leave it anywhere where im not at...i always have it with me...at school just everywhere ...if i were there right now i'd give u a best friend hug...but for now i'll have to live with giving u a cyber hug

im flying back to arkansas as i mentioned in my last journal ....but my mom and don are not going with me! so im gonna fly on a plane all by myself on the beginning of june...my "grandparents" called last night and started talking some shit with my mom saying that she hasnt sent them money or something like that....so thats why mom and don dont want to go back....so my mom and don are gonna drop me off at the airport so i can get on my plane...and all i need is a friend to come pick me up at the airport somewhere in ark so if anyone who thinks/knows that they could come get me comment this journal telling me so...or send me a note asking for either mine, moms, or dons cell #...thanks i really appriciate it

I MISS U ALL AND I WILL SEE U SOON!!